2020 - "...as long as I try"
- Jul 6, 2020
- 2 min read
"You don't have to be the fastest runner"
How is it already JULY??? I can't believe we are closer to the end of 2020 than the start of 2020. 2020 have been a 'taking a break' year. At this moment, I feel unproductive and useless that I have no progress in my life. So, I decided to buy some eBooks from Shopee which cost only $2.99 for 5 books. The books were emailed to me 5 hours later. (I know you can find FREE versions of eBook online but I was really so lazy to find for it and decided why not just help to give income to a someone. Anyway, it was only $2.99.)
The seller was super efficient in sharing the books and I started to read a book name, "Mindset" by Dr Carol S. Dweck. What I love the most so far is when she said along the line of comparing those with open mindset VS a fixed mindset. Those with open mindset would have better judgement as compared to those which have a fixed mindset. I'm really excited to finish the book and AT LEAST I get to gain some knowledge from this long long break since I could not continue my tutoring for now.
Anyway, I've read some postings online that made me feel better about being weak and useless during this tough phase. Safaascarves is having some problems too which I have recorded a vlog about it. (Will update when the vlog is up!) Sometimes when I am at my lowest point, I actually do tell myself to give up on everything. Drop the business and just go back to my usual 9-5 job. At the same time, even finding a 9-5 job is difficult during this crisis. And I just can't help but just stare at my room ceiling wondering "so what's next?" Basically, I tried to bring my mood up by always reminding myself, "at least I tried" "as long as I try, you have already done something for yourself" and I think this is a very empowering and comforting reminder to myself that I go at my own pace. Even if I did fail, I actually did try my best.
There is no need to COMPETE, COMPARE and COMPLAIN. Be CONTENTED and in shaa Allah, Allah s.w.t will help you. Sometimes, being too worried also makes you feel more tired, you know. I hope my future self reads this with a smile saying that I did the right thing and whatever problems I have today, is not as big as whatever problems I will be having in the future. (I know I write this a lot but I mean, it's true. I want to work so hard so that my future self can actually do that) Embrace the tough ride. In shaa Allah, there will be ease soon.
May Allah s.w.t grant us ease and protection always. May Allah s.w.t grant us blessings and more blessings for being patient in this tough timems. Aamiin.♡
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