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Fertilizers for Motivation

Never let people define who you are. Or tell you what you should be doing or your goals in life. You are you. You create your own dreams and chase them because dreams can be a reality. 

 

Comparing is a disease of the mind. Don't compare yourself to anyone. Just carry on at your own pace

You don't need attention and compliments to feel good about yourself. Being confident can make you happier. Happiness starts with you. 

Only focus on your goals. Don't be distracted by others. The only way to succeed is to focus on yourself and what is best for you.

Be kind. Be nice. Think good of others.

It makes a difference,

a good one.

Quarter-Life Crisis (+did something a little crazy)

  • Nov 13, 2019
  • 4 min read

" When you want something in life, you just need to reach out and grab it"

*Stares blankly into space* *SCREAMSSS INTERNALLY* *SIPS FROM A CUP OF ICE MILO* *Holds tears from falling because my family might think I am crazy* *Takes in a deeeeep breath* *Reads '25 Signs You're Having a Quarter-Life Crisis* *Laughs in frustration (is there even such a thing?)* -


Okay Hi. Let's talk about this once for all shall we? I am a 22-going 23 next 2 months, young adult who has anxiety issues and having a very serious problem called "QUARTER LIFE CRISIS". Today, I woke up, feeling sick. Went in and out of the toilet a few times. Broke down and stuffed my face in a towel after a shower. "What the heck am I doing in my life???" "Why am I like this???" "Why do I feel like this - hopeless and unhappy???" I have been feeling this for the past few months - unhappy. I felt that I am so unhappy, depress, full of anxiety and panic attacks that I.......fell sick so often. How does someone even get sick for the past 2 months without even feeling better. My flu last 2 months got worse. When I thought I was going to be better after getting a flu shot, I GOT EVEN WORST with stomach flu. This is MY BODY telling me that I am failing in my health. I am not healthy. I am not okay and I need some rest and time to recharge and get better. I have studied hard and pushed myself for the past 22 years of my life. PSLE -> O Levels -> Diploma -> Degree -> Work All that in 22 years and I did not give myself a freaking break from all of it? I NEEDED IT SO BADLY. Why didn't I take a break? Because everyone around me is pressuring me to. But so what? Why did I even succumb to such pressures? "You have to work!" "Have you found a job?" "Apply this, apply that" STOP IT! All I need is a break. It isn't a want but a need. I need it so badly that I know I am already standing on the edge of a burnout (or already am). Looking back, I sound crazy!!! Why would someone not take a break after almost 20 years of studying?? But today I told myself, that's it. I am really losing it and I need that break. I need to stop all that I am doing and take care of myself. I am only 22 and I don't even take care of myself? I don't even have any social life because I am just so busy with life and I just care about money and my mental health is all over the place!!?? Through my unhappiness, I just hustle without putting myself first or ever thought that I should put a pause to whatever I am doing. HOW SELFISH AM I? People wouldn't care about me. They wouldn't care if I am sick. They just need me to go to work to finish half of their workload and that is it. That is work. And it hits me that I do not want to work for people. For so many work I have been through, I realised it as it is. As selfish as I may sound, this is clearly not how I see myself in 5 or 10 years time. Sitting on the desk and just doing my own things. Handing in report by 1400. No. People chasing me and asking me to do things that needs to be done by a certain time? No. I am not this. I do not see myself working for others. I always try my best to make things work but at the end of the day, I do not get recognition. I do not get to feel happy of other people's success because of the little things I do. Because the little things I do, do not matter to big companies. In simple terms, 'I do not see my success in other people's success'. I can't believe I am writing all this because I am just done and I may have done something a little crazy - I sent in my resignation. Just like that and In shaa Allah, in 2020, I will be focusing more on my 2 businesses. I mean, it all starts from yourself... If you know what job makes you happy? Do it. If you know what job makes you motivated to wake up everyday? Do it. If you know what job makes you comfortable to push yourself further? Do it. As for myself, I realise that business is very much for me. I love the challenge and I love the interaction. And knowing myself and being very disciplined and goal oriented, I know I can do this! I just need to have a lot of faith in myself and in Allah s.w.t.... I just need that confidence in me and Allah s.w.t. Life might be so confusing now but this step might just be a step closer to success. I just need to be more patience and persevere more. I will get there. I MUST AND I WILL. AAMIIN!


May Allah s.w.t. protect me always and bless all of us with success and give us wealth that is unimaginable and ease our way to get to our life goals and to go through challenges in life. Aamiin!

thepinkrosette

 
 
 

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