Willingness & Effort

" Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself"

It's 12.22AM on a Friday and I was just editing my blog post. I was organizing it when suddenly I got so emotional. Don't get me wrong, some people might be wondering why I am so emotional every time but I can't help to be so lost in my thoughts and emotions when writing a blog piece. (And this kdrama playing on the TV in front of me isn't helping!!!) Well, we have come to the last few days of June which means half of 2018 has already passed. I was reading my past blogs and I am so so madly proud of myself for being consistent in taking my time to reflect and blog about my own current feelings and problems I am facing. It did work guys! I felt more calm, at peace, and composed. (Alhamdulillah!) Secondly, I reevaluate and renewed my intention of writing. Actually, more of adding to the current purpose which was to stay positive. I realise that if I ever left this world one day, there would be something of me that I left behind that could benefit everyone. It might not make any difference at all now but (In shaa Allah) one day it might change someone's life.

Thirdly, I learnt something so precious that could motivate me to move forward at every down moment - willingness & effort. In this six months, there were many ups and downs. One of it was my iman. You know how it is so hard to always keep your iman up because we are just humans. We are so weak that our iman at some point of time will tend to go down. However, everyone's iman will ALWAYS go down at some point of time - yes!!

Then I thought, what makes all of us different?

Imagine this, Graph A could be your iman, always going down very often but often come back up too. Graph B could be yours who just picked up yourself towards religion, thus very strong in your faith. Graph C could be yours who STILL HAVE IMAN but are still not ready to be committed to practice the religion properly or whatever your situation might be that is preventing you to do better.

(I illustrated it in a graph for you guys to imagine it better like how I see it. Don't mind my OCD-ness as a science student HAHA)

Back to the question:

What makes all of us different? Willingness & effort. To do what? To have the willingness to change ourselves and putting in the effort to make that change. And to always draw out and keep in mind of an ideal graph of how our iman should be...

A few days ago, I was at one of my lowest and I knew I had to put in the effort to do something to actually change myself and bring my iman back up again. I wanted to because I ever felt what being so close to Allah was like. Definitely, losing that kind of feeling just makes you feel more awful and unpleasant. So I contacted one of the most Ma shaa Allah Singaporean Ustazah, Ustazah Liyana Musfirah and she gave me a few advices: 1) It will be over soon All these are just a phase and this phase will be over soon. We do not know when but we always have to be patient and doa and seek from Allah s.w.t for guidance like how Nabi Yunus did when he was in the whale.

2) Sharing positive quotes When you share something positive, it only does not make you think positive but it can also inspire and help others. And also when someone relates to it, we know that we are not going through difficult phases alone but also others are going through hard times too.

The second point also made me add on to my initial purpose/intention of blogging. Half of 2018 was crazy HAHAHA but I never regretted starting to write again to keep me sane. There are so many stories of my life, advices and my bittersweet experiences I want to share to the world. Another half of 2018 have been planned out, in shaa Allah. And if I'm still healthy and living, it will all go as planned or even better!

I pray that all of you at least learnt something or cherished something from the past 6 months in 2018 - be it something big or small because every moment matters. I also pray that the next 6 months of 2018 will be a great one for all of us, In shaa Allah. Lastly, never give up on life because, at the end of the day, you will feel satisfied that you were strong enough to pull through everything. ♥

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